Im so much more blessed than I give credit for.
I’ve reached a point in my life where I’m finally happy with where I stand.
Growing up, I fought and fought for a reason to merely exist.
I was abused physically, sexually, and mentally, all starting at the age of 8 and on through my teen years.
I struggled to open my mouth about it and never really did other than close friends.
I could tell you stories about how different things were for me back then, then you’d see why I’m so happy now.
I could tell you how many times I told myself I wouldn’t make it past 16, then you’d wonder how I’m still here.
I could tell you things were normal and wonderful growing up. That I had it easy, but I’d be lying.
I got to experience things most people will never get to in their whole life, but when I had secrets like these hidden away, it took away from those experiences a lot.
I wish things could have been different, but if I had the chance to change it all, I wouldn’t.
We go through things in life because there’s something more than needs to be created. But from negative experiences, come great futures and that’s where I’m headed.
I’ve been hurt, yes. But I’ve also hurt others to an extreme degree and those memories hurt more than anything, because unlike the experiences I went through, I HAD the choice to not do the things I did, and I failed.
Every day is a learning process.
Every day is a mistake to some, but a stepping stone to others.
Every day, my heart opens more and more.
So, I stop here.
I’m really tired of negativity surrounding me for so many years.
To those I’ve hurt, I am sorry and I’ve even said it many times. My intentions were never to do so.
And to those who somehow hold anger or grudges toward me for things that have hurt you, I’m sorry.
I won’t spend the rest of my life living in anger, nor will I live it being hateful to others. I’m not the person this world tried to form. I’m greater.
I let go of any negativity surrounding me tonight.
Whether you do or not is entirely up to you. But I’ll be busy living my life to the fullest because for the first time in 21 years, I’m FINALLY given the chance to.
I’m definitely up to having more friends than enemies. So when timing is right for others, I’m ready to be that for you.
And with that said, I’m ending my night surrounded with friends who have always accepted me for me. And falling asleep in my husbands arms as I do every night and as I will for the rest of my life.
I miss this babe!! BB VIC ❤️
TOO BAD I’M STUCK AT WORK
That is so cute! And such a great idea.